I'm kinda proud of myself today! I have overcome my weaker self today!!! Twice actually!
First i had to ask somebody for help.. In order to find a job i need to be in Dortmund next week two days in a row. and those tickets are kinda expensive.. at least when you don't have much money to spent. I mean the jobcenter will probably pay me the money for the tickets back, but first i have to buy them. And as that trip wasn't planned, i don't have that money right now. So i had to ask a brother to borrow me some.
I really hate to ask somebody for money... normally i'd rather suffer in silence than to ask anybody for help. And all my instincts told me just to forget about those trips because i really didn't want to ask anyone. Even though i know very well, that i have some lovely brothers and sisters that would help me any way they can.. I just hate asking. Maybe because i always had to take care for myself. I never really had anyone to rely on. not even as a child!
The second time i have overcome my weaker self was in the afternoon, when i went on a walk in the forest. I just thought it was way to beautiful outside to stay in. But normally my laziness wins and i do stay home. But this time i really did go into the forest.
I was walking about an hour till i found a spot with a beautiful view where i stayed about an hour or so. On my way back I even met a family of our congregation who went with their dogs for a walk.
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Yay!
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